Full-Blown Agony: My Struggle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense sensation erupted behind my right eye. Then came quick jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain around a single eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony around one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records propose unusual treatments for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known people.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Elizabeth Tyler
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